#Auditory hallucinations professional#

It’s such a despairing feeling when I go in circles with my voices. I try yelling at them in my head or aloud to try to sway them to leave me alone. I have also found that I listen to my voices to fight them off. Even during periods of wellness, I perceive my auditory hallucinations as real, which causes me a lot of confusion, among other things. Then there’s also the fact that they’re so real that why wouldn’t I listen to them? These voices feel and sound real, more than anything else. Low confidence makes it easier for us to believe negative things, so it’s easier to fall into the trap of believing the voices - especially when I believe the critical things they say myself already. Since I was a kid, my confidence has been low for several reasons. Anosognosia played-and continues to play-a significant role in my listening to and believing the voices I hear, but fortunately, I can maneuver myself out of these hallucinations much more quickly nowadays.Īnother reason behind why I listen to and believe my voices is that I’m not confident enough in myself. It is as if I completely forget that I live with schizophrenia and get lost in my symptoms. While I understand now the need for medication and that I live with schizophrenia, at times I continue to battle anosognosia in the way of not always understanding that I am experiencing psychotic symptoms. However, my relationship with schizophrenia still is not that simple. Luckily, thanks to my family, I eventually adhered to taking my medication, which helped me chip away at anosognosia and ultimately comprehend that I live with schizophrenia. Even when I received help, I could not acknowledge the illness in me or the need for antipsychotic medication.

#Auditory hallucinations professional#

This impeded me from recognizing that I was in need of professional help. For years I could not understand that I was sick with schizophrenia due to anosognosia - lack of insight into one’s own mental health condition.

Well, nothing in life is black and white, and this certainly is not either. With time, I’ve learned what helps me cope and that these voices are not real, but why is it that I listen to and believe these voices nowadays when I know I live with schizophrenia?

I have heard all kinds of voices and even now while taking an antipsychotic, I still experience voices. I have been living with auditory hallucinations for over a decade.